I can’t begin to describe how I got here. I don’t know how I came to this moment. I’ve never been one to fear change, but lately change has been screaming in my face. I don’t quite know where I’ll end up next. God has a plan for the future, I just haven’t gotten there yet. I get a little scared. I don’t want to leave the here and now, I like it here. I used to love change, but right now I just don’t… I have faith in where I’ll end up and I’m excited about some things in life to come. I’m patiently waiting… or, at least I’m trying my best to gain the patience. I just want that excitement to come. I’m stuck in this moment with nowhere to run. I want to find my running shoes. Hopefully I will get the bigger picture soon. Until then, I’ll be happy right here right now. God has taken me on a roller coaster and until now I’ve enjoyed the ride. Once the ride starts back up again, I know I’ll be on fire. I’m lucky to have the ones I love, I’m just waiting for a career to begin. Even though I can’t see where I’ll be, God can see every piece of time that is my life. I will soon see for myself. It just takes time; God’s time. 
Endless Thought July 14, 2010
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